♥ Saturday, July 18, 2009
Title: I'm going to hang on without you by my side, no matter what.
Love hurts. seriously. i've try to forget someone but it took me so long to forget that person. now, i've found another one but he's not suitable for me and i'm going to suffer like how i used to suffer.i miss the past we used to have.
i miss the past we used to talk.
i miss the past we used to play.
i miss the past we used to disturb Edward, Justin, Geraldine and others.
i miss the disturbing of you.
i miss the past of helping you folding your clothes.
i'm missing everything we used to do. but is it going to make any difference? i guess not.
i'm alreay trying to forget you but it seems like god's playing with me. whenever i dont wish to think of you, your face appear through my mind. your smile, your laughter, your everything.
it seems like i cant forget you like the way i cant forget Mcginn last time. i'm suffering inside but you wont know it beacuase you dont know what i've been through all these years.
put it aside. dont wish to continue.
today, was totally the worst day of my whole 16 years of life.
headache plus heart broken plus misunderstanding of family = end of world
pissed off with my family. seems like my friends know me better than my family members. what am i in my family? useless? stupid? dumb? idiot? gosh.
headache is killing me for this day. i hope that i can die early so i dont need to suffer so much.
how come everyone around seems to like be in a happy family and yet i'm not? i'm so so tired in my family. no family warm, no family concern. what kind of family is this? IT'S CONSIDER AS HELL!
not going to continue anything for today. what past, let it past.
TAGS REPLY:
to AhJas: hahah, will tagged you back soon.
to jac: i'll try to stay strong and be back who i am.
to kewean: gosh larh you. how come like that say?
to CHARMAINE: hahah, havent yet. still got 1/4 left then finish whole book.
to christina: i'm sick and tired of my own life. if i'm dead, let my family know that i got a blog and let them read it. i feel like dying. i miss him. seriously. i cant forget the way he used to look at me. i feel like crying but cant cry out. it's so diffcult for me to cry. GOSH!!!!
11:50:00 PM;
